Crop Top: (Similar) Zara

Pants: Native Youth

Hat: J Crew

Shoes: Forever 21

I absolutley love finding new brands that offer amazing fashion peices made with such a high quilty fabric. You can always tell the difference between clothes that were stiched up quickly to sell as many as possible and the ones that someone for time and effort on. Native Youth is one of those! I was so impressed with how great these trousars feel and how comfrotable they are. I could literally live in them all day. Not only are they the comfiest things ever, they also are so fashionable and PERFECT for summer!

If you haven’t checked out Native Youth yet, you need to get on that because you’re truley missing out if you don’t own a clothing item from them.

Hello everyone. This is going to be a little different than my normal fashion centered post. Backseatchic was intended on being all things fashion related and nothing else. I have always been an extremely private and introverted person and never liked or felt comfortable showing my vulnerable side to pretty much anybody. So I kept this blog strictly fashion, the only side I have felt comfortable sharing with all of you until now. I really don’t know why I am like that or what made me like that but I think the main reason was so I would never get hurt. I mean, if you never show emotions how can someone ever hurt you? And… that worked for a very long time but as I’ve gotten older and I matured I’ve realized that isn’t a healthy way to live your life.

Life gets hard. Life is brutal. Life knocks you down from time to time to the point you start questioning, what is the point of all of this? And years ago I used to surround my thoughts with that mindset. I was consumed with sadness to the point it became my comfort zone. Whenever I felt an ounce of happiness I felt uncomfortable and crawled back into my bubble of darkness because that is what I was used to. Sadness can be extremely addicting. It becomes the only constant thing in your life and when everything gets too hard you start relying on it.

I think part of the problem is, now in our world we kind of Romanize sadness. Being depressed has become a personality trait and relatable instead of a mental illness. And it shouldn’t be like that, especially for those who actually suffer from depression but aren’t taken seriously. Sadness is not beautiful…. It’s just sad and ugly. There is nothing romantic about wishing this would all end.

But you know what is beautiful? Happiness. Complete and utter happiness. The kind where you start looking forward to the next day instead of dreading it because you realize every single feeling you are feeling at this exact moment, is just temporary. Happiness is not a destination, it is a feeling. Just like hunger or tiredness. Sometimes happiness might fade away and sadness might return but it is all temporary. I think if everyone had that mindset we would all be a lot better off.

As I am writing this, I am feeling extremely sad. Probably the saddest I have been in years but that is okay. That means I am alive and normal. Right now, I want to punch, scream and hide away from the world because life is knocking me to the ground. My motivation is completely shot at the moment and I just want to lie in bed all day and watch Netflix until I stop feeling like this. And years ago, I would have saw no hope right now. I would have thought, this is it. I am just always going to feel like this, what is the point?

But, everything is temporary. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next week, but eventually I will look back at this post and smile because I will know I got through this rough patch. We need to feel sadness to appreciate our happiness.

Well, I have let you all into another little piece of my brain and although that terrifies me…. I know although I feel hopeless at the moment, at least I was able to push myself to write this all out and press “Publish.”

  • Lauren xx

 

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Pictures from my trip to Las Vegas!

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I stayed at the MGM Grand and it was such a wonderful stay (:

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The Venetian for dinner & drinks!

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You know what they say… What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas (; That may be true, but not when it comes to pictures! This was my first time visiting Las Vegas (finally turned 21) I decided I needed to experience it and it was amazing! The weather was perfect and there is something to do here 24/7. Vegas literally never sleeps. I gambled, explored, drank some margaritas, tanned, and danced! If you haven’t visited Vegas yet, I highly recomend it. Just don’t loose all your money (;

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As you can tell this is a bit different from my usually blog post. Well, I want to start incorporating interior design into my blog! I have always loved decorating my room and it is definitely one of my passions. I am constantly getting new inspiration for decor so my room is always changing. I can never look at something for more than a couple months because I get bored very easily. So expect a lot more blog posts featuring home decor, interior inspiration and other bits and pieces. 

As of right now, I am in love with my room. It has a very vintage feel to it and I made sure to add a ton of fairy lights (my favorite). I think the most important thing when it comes to designing your room is too make sure you are comfortable in it. You don’t want to create a space for you to live and then afterwards think, “Hm, this isn’t really me.”